While trying to be above average in two worlds, she ended up mediocre all round. Work hours were used for brainstorming ideas to get out of work, Motherhood was spent feeling guilty for wanting to utilise Daycare more often. There was no day off. No day off from herself. No day off from her excuses that seemed real but filled her with guilt. Maybe she just wasn’t trying hard enough. Maybe she was just feeling sorry for herself. Maybe the best she could be, was average.